sadmadbad

hiks..kmaren aku dapet kejadian yg serem bgt..
ampe skg aku masi inget..gimana yah klo KOPAJA ituh beneran nabrak aku..
apa mobilku ancur n aku juga..or somthing else happen..

yah itu kejadianku kemaren tepat di hari selasa jm 1 siang
pdhl sebelum pergi dah gak sreg..
dompetku ketinggalan..
jadi aku hrus balik lagi..
dan kejadian deh..

tepat beberapa detik sebelum kejadian aku memohon padaNya..
"Tuhan Lindungin dita dalam perjalanan, hingga dita sampai tujuan dengan selamat tanpa kurang satu apapun..Amin"

dan di pertigaan ituh..di sudut kiri aku liat abang2 diatas maenan kuda2an yg dia genjot.. dia ngantri krn maw masuk ke jalan rumahku..
jd kurangin gas..dgn maxut pelan2..dan byk motor2 yg GAK TAU ATURAN ituh nyerobot dari kanan dan kiri menuju ke depan mobilku..

sampai aku liat ke kanan KOPAJA dgn kecepatan tinggi yg gak peduli ama moncong mobiLku yg udah kluar..siap bgt bwat nabrak mobiLku..

reflek aku banting stir ke kiri..dimana abang2 ituh tadi berada..
spion kiri yg langsung nutup..dan disertai bunyi gesekkan yg nyaring..
antara maenan kuda2an yg terbuat dari seng ituh dgn body kiri mobilku..

aku menepi ke kiri utk ngeliat hasil gesekkan tsb..
dan ternyata 2 pintu rata..
dan terlihat jelas garis lurus bewarna putih..
A*****G kata yg keluar dari mulutku..
dan aku kembali masuk ke dalam mobil..
dengan mataku yg gak kusadari dah basah..
serta pikiranku yg kosong..

kuambil HP n send sms to my dad and my mum..i said i've had car crash and im so so sorry..

hingga tadi malem..
masi jelas banget diingatanku..kejadian ituh..
hingga aku mengutuki diriku sendiri..




pertanyaan dalam diriku..
salah gak siy klo aku harus memendam smua permasalahanku?
salah gak siy klo aku ingin mereka menanyakannya kepadaku apa yg kurasa?
salah gak siy klo aku hanya ingin didengar bukan dikomentarin or dikasih wejangan?
apa aku salah krn aku terlalu aware thd permasalahan yg terjadi sama mereka..
dan apa aku salah kalau aku gak suka ama mereka yg pnah berbohong kepadaku..

ituh diriku..aku yah aku..knpa aku harus berubah..sebegitu salahnyakah aku?



imreallysadnow
i'm yapsyupsyGaL ;D

realize

i realize
when i decided to forget bout him
i lost half of my soul
and my heart

i realize
when i try to hate him
my heart is crying
and my mind can't think clearly

and i realize
the moment when we get together
make my life more than great

i miz that moment
but, there's no second chance for me
and i must realize

thx GOD
for that's moment we share..









dedicated26122001
i'm yapsyupsyGaL ;D

my horoscope

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